The Kids have Made Dinner…

To be or not to be…..today I choose To Be!! I like it when people listen to me, and I mean really listen. So I really hope when people talk to me I really listen too. You know…it has to be a respect thing! Umm, but husbands don’t count regarding the above. Why? I don’t know, it just seems to be the way it works around here.
So today I am reaching out into this space of intangible elements to share something about nothing. Why? Because my inner voice is ignoring me and I need a more appreciative platform. We all have something to say at one time or another and actually finding someone…something to truly and really listen I think is getting harder and harder to find. Is it because we are all so busy, rushing around trying to get it all done; is it because we don’t know any better; is it because we are tired and frustrated? Whatever the reason to feel this way, I am going on a trip, a journey of no longer muttering to myself when a young man expects me to move to the other side of the shopping aisle and he has a tin of muscle powder and some eggs in his trolley, while I am 12 months pregnant, (I know…it just feels like 12 months), two toddlers in the trolley sitting on a mountain of food items…Yes – young prince I shall move the world to get out of your way and make a smooth, safe and effortless path – for you, bugger the ugly fat pregnant women who we should feed to the dragons.
I have muttered, talked, nagged and insulted myself to death, for far too long…time to diversify and reach to the sisterhood for my angst.
So if I send you a ‘be my fb friend’ message today, please don’t be scared…it is just me…you don’t have to be my friend, well not straight away…friendships take time. Just listen if you like!
I am an Aussie Girl, living in lovely QLD and from NSW. Yes I know! State of Origin has always been eventful for me over the years…more on that another time.
Besides loving living in QLD, most winters, I am a Mum to four kids, from the ages 10 to 5…the result of too much fresh air. I am a wife to my partner of more than two decades, although I am sure he would have another name for my existence, perhaps a few names. I am a daughter, sister, aunt, sister in law, friend, unorganised, control freak, overly safety conscious, loud at times, perhaps too serious, sociable, then not very sociable, friendly, giving, thoughtful, bad mood swings, I have a temper, argumentative, caring, loving, loyal and honest…within reason and past the naughty forty period of my life, or maybe not.
My favourite thing is picking the kids up from school and having all four of them at the same time, loudly and in partial English tell me how their day was….I don’t even remember asking them how their day was, cooking dinner 365 days a year, wearing jeans in summer because I have grizzly bear legs, not washing my hair for weeks and crawling into bed at some crazy hour for sleep, only to realise there is someone else needing some attention. Oh and did I happen to mention I can be pretty selfish too…having kids much later in life, after my not so rewarding, but fun career…I only too well know what life is like pre – husband, kids, mortgage, pressure, time schedules……we live to breathe another day xx